To myself, the one whom i've been questioning for these few months...
when i first started studying here, i thought that it would be easy for me...
But what happened exactly so different...
I asked to myself, "why do i become like this? what's obstructing me at this point?"
I didn't get the answer..
Is it the way i live which wasn't same as before?
Is it the way i live with the people here?
Is it because there's something missing? This one could be the answer, because of that i had gloomy nights thereafter...
Why am i getting stucked with this kind of thing? It seems like a useless thing to do
I've lost it, i want to get it back! But how??
I actually knew the answer, but i took too much time regretting the lost and did nothing to get the lost thing back...
Because of that too, i lost my interest in studying, how could i do such a thing because another thing?
But, that's for real, i can't seem to move on because of that one thing
Why? Is that thing so important to me? I would answer, yes
That one thing gave me spirit to live, and even, to study
And it's my fault to have lost it
What i want to do right now is.. "To get the lost thing back to me without regretting why i've lost it, so i can do it easily"
...........
Then, another problem occured, i lost my interest in studying
That made my score dropped down so much...
Even though i have consulted, but still i have the problem...
Soon i realized something, from a video i watched, "the problem is me" the problem is not the environment, not the lost thing..
So i listened to a song, the lyric i found was "Time is life so spend your days the way you want"
I promise to myself, to not waste the time anymore, wasting the time means the time is killing me...
My cousin even said, " What do you study for? For the test, or for the knowledge?"
Promise is a promise, this note is a proof that i promise to myself...
